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I'm annoyed.

Last year, I applied at 20_truths to claim Kiba/Hanabi. Then as luck would have it, it seemed as though the community had died right around that time (or at least the mods weren't responding to any of the claims anymore). I eventually wrote the fic on my own and posted it at my writing journal anyway. After checking back for a few months, I figured the comm dead for good. I was kinda sad because I liked the community's idea and would've wanted to claim other pairings or characters as well.

THEN just now as I was catching up on posts and such, I decided to check it on a whim to see what's become of the place. I trek over to the claims post and discovered that everyone else's claims were finally approved recently except for mine. They basically just skipped over my claim. WTF? Now I'm sitting here wondering if the mods hate me or something. Either that or they've decided that they won't approve me because I've already posted the fic at my journal and at ff.net (the rules didn't forbid it). But really, at least say something.

I'm really hoping it was just an honest mistake, because... well, freaking hells, I'm just annoyed.


Off topic: Two posts on the same day after almost three months of not updating- how about that?! xD

I think this journal of mine has been ugly long enough. :p The SO very awesome catch_22 bought me a paid account here the other day, and I just had to do something with it. Still fairly simple, which is the way I like it...but it looks tons better than that generic layout I had before so that's all that matters. View it! I'll need to tweak some other stuff later though- there's that little white border that's showing up on the right side of the layout for IE, but I'm too tired to dig into it right now. :p

I also went back and tagged everything too, which made me realize how little I really update this journal. That shall change! You shall hear me dribble nonsense until you want to kill me off your friends list! >_>;

Me loves Rachael. ;_;

Help: Was it ever mentioned in Inuyasha that the Tenseiga can only be wielded by a full youkai? And if it was mentioned, do you happen to remember which manga chapter/volume it was covered in?

After some deliberation, I had decided to revive my Cycles of Destiny fanfic *gasp* from the dead even though it's been almost 4 years since I updated. And since I'm sorely behind in the series, I'm so not equipped to counter anyone's questions about certain aspects of the fic because...well, because I'm clueless. -_-;; So I'm on the process of revising and reposting the original 6 chapters...and this was one of the questions I got for my 2nd chapter:

I don't understand how he can use the sword of healing, I thought only a full youkai could, and that's why Inuyasha couldn't.

Anyone out there that's keeping up with Inuyasha- can you tell me if that's true?

My personal beliefs on the two swords in regards to their "barriers" have always been that it's not really blood/race specific...but rather an essence and the swords will then choose/accept its master accordingly. For example, the Tenseiga...didn't Toutousai always say that you must have compassion and the desire to save in order for the sword to accept its master? Same with the Tessaiga...I never really thought the barrier was about hanyou or full youkai blood, but rather about the will/desire/need to protect. If it's about blood, how would Inutaisho wield it- seeing that he's full youkai and all?

Note that I said my personal "beliefs"...that's because I had these beliefs long ago back when a whole lot wasn't yet mentioned about the swords, so they were more my theories than anything. But since I haven't kept up, these theories could've been shot to hell by Takahashi for all I know. :p Geh, I came back to this fic, telling myself that I would just write it according to how I had it planned without consideration to what's been covered later on...but I'm beginning to wonder if that's a good idea or not. T_T

Lately, I've taken to writing drabbles and fanfic snippets in an old battered notebook to kill time while commuting to/from work (that is, when I'm not falling asleep on the bus). It's kind of nice to get back into writing random stuff again- I miss having to write without really worrying about much. I wish PotW isn't currently giving me so much headache though...because it'd be nice to finish off that last 5% of chapter 19 so that I can update without waiting another year or something. >_>; I'm thinking of doing a cookie/drabble series project for PotW too, but I'll see. ^^;

But anyhow- my point (yes, I actually had one) is if any of you feel like chucking out unrefined ideas or some kind of fic challenge that I can tackle? I've been wanting to try my hand at different kinds of writing for different characters than the ones I've written before. Or something. I guess I just want something to mull over and daydream about while I'm commuting. All I've been writing is ShikaTema drabbles (some of which are posted at inkcanvas)...but I also want to write other stuff. I don't really know which of you are still reading fanfics or are interested in it enough to chuck out challenges at me, but I thought I'd ask anyway. ^^; Any pairing is fine, with the exception of yaoi/slash...just because I can't write those even if my life depended on it. -_-;; And obviously, it'd have to be from a fandom I'm familiar with though...like Naruto, Hana Yori Dango, NANA, or something like that. Or even for PotW. Whatever goes, I just want something to get my brain rolling. ^_^

On a completely irrelevant note, I just wanted to thank you for the responses you left for the last post. I didn't reply to them...because I couldn't formulate a reply to convey my thoughts in a proper way- but I wanted to let you know that the comments that were left brought a lot of peace for me. It calmed me down and made me step back a little to berate myself for being stupid again. *hugs you*

I totally must pimp this fic by hydrogen. I found it yesterday at 1sentence since it was done for their challenge. Dun dun dun, it's a Komatsu Nana + Ichinose Takumi fanfic! Now, how rare is that? I mean, NANA fanfics are pretty much non-existent as it is...but a Nana/Takumi fic? *dies*

Chello, are you reading this? :DD See, we're not the only two people on earth who likes Nana/Takumi. ^_^

I MISS MY INTERNET!! *breathes* Now that I've gotten that out...I still don't have anything interesting to talk about. I had to be away from the internet for the past few weeks- and it was hard. T_T So for every free moment I have now, I'm running around trying to reply to emails and LJ comments, etc. ;_; Goodness, catching up is hell because it feels like I'd never finish the long list of backlogged stuff. So eee...for those of you who were waiting for a response from me about some thing or another, you'll hear from me very soon! :p

Other than that, I finally did add something to the writing journal I created for myself some weeks ago- and it's a NANA fic no less. *_* I saw the challenge prompt for (in parenthesis) yesterday and the next thing I knew, I got it written out in within 30 minutes. ^^; Yay for plotless and pointless slacking.

Anyhow...does anyone know the policy on writing fanfics inspired by fanart? Are you required to ask for permission if you happened across a fanart and want to write a fic based on the drawing? I'm really not very familiar with how the whole fanfiction community goes since I'm really one of those private writers...but I've kind of gotten curious with it all. :p

And now I'm going to go do some minor catching up with some overdue stuff before I crash for the night and continue with them plus the 1000+ emails tomorrow after work. Yes, I have over one thousand emails sitting in my inbox at the moment. Woe does not describe it. ;_;

It's rather late to be posting this...but I'm still cracking up everytime I think of this so I thought I'd share. xD

A conversation I had with a student on Valentine's Day:

Student Leo: Teacher Tea, are you going to find a boyfriend today?
Teacher Tea: No, Leo, I'm not going to find a boyfriend today.
Student Leo: Why teacher? You should find a boyfriend!
Teacher Tea: No, I'm not going to find him because I'm waiting for him to find me.
Student Leo: Haaah, you should not wait too long because you'll be too old and no one will want you!

Wonderful, isn't it? >_>; And btw, Leo's this student I have who's always asking me why I don't have a boyfriend. I swear he has some odd fascination about me and boyfriends. Everytime my phone rings and he hears it, he'd run over and ask me if it's my boyfriend calling even though he knows I don't have a boyfriend. *_*